remember that thing you wanted so badly?
that which you were so jealous of me for
well, let me tell you this-
it's not all you thought it would be.
it's not, it's really not.
i'm being dragged into my own living nightmare
and forced to keep secrets.
i won't say i didn't enjoy it
but there's such a price to pay.

the fakeness these days
just because i'm gullible
and weak
well, you should be happy
you avoided all this.

you knew the complications
you didn't care
you wanted it anyways
you're lucky you didn't get it.
i got it.
it's... not a good thing.
trust me.

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for the person who this is to,
you might not ever see this
but i tried.